Just a normal day

Hump day, a Wednesday, just an average day. We’ve had some hard ones recently. Well not necessarily hard, but hard in the eternal perspective of wanting to do what is right and good and we’ve been taught and been given bricks from Him and promptings and teachings and have been shown a better way. He keeps reminding us that we […]

Pros and Cons for the demon slayer in you

Have you ever had a decision that you just couldn’t make; one that was so convoluted but should be simple and at the core probably is but life is swirling around and around and you cant see through it to the core of the issue? A few years ago I read a book called the Art of Swedish Death Cleansing, […]

Did you say tackle?

It’s another great Monday, well overall it was good. I got up with the alarm, I technically woke up about 10 minutes before, par for the course with me, but wanted to be sure to get a head start on getting up and getting back into the work schedule. I crossed off the pre-moving checklist for the day getting those […]

Exact timing..HIS

I didn’t sleep at all last night, a few short catnaps if you can call them naps, fraught with anger at myself, pain for hurting CJ and longing to be able to communicate to no avail, believe me I tried. It was a very very long night. I spent the night in prayer and supplication to God and He kept […]

Going to Church

Feeling better still, so that’s a good sign, the food/carb loading I did is doing its job, my stomach is defiantly not happy, but I can deal with that. Getting past that hump of having no energy which leads to apathy of not eating, not being hungry is a vicious cycle that is hard to get through and makes recovery […]

Life is not a checklist

I sit here on this Friday night, upset, upset that I upset CJ. I honestly didn’t mean to, we had a beautiful day, full of text, videos, pictures and new stories about the Game and conversations again about many things. Our lunch date was again very tender when saying goodbye and the acknowledgement of things that need to be said […]

Unsaid words…

Day 2 post surgery, doing better much improvement over yesterday. Even had just enough energy to take a bath and soak, can’t get the incision site wet but that’s not a problem so it was nice, relaxing and the bubbles felt good to help clean and make me not feel so yucky. But as always since I am barely eating […]

On the horizon…Nakedness!!!

Post Surgery just over 24 hours, feels like a week. The surgery was ever-so nerve wracking, they were running late with the first surgery and sitting and waiting normally for me is easy, I can always find something to occupy myself, a book, talking to someone, napping whatever, patience is usually easy for me, but yesterday I was struggling with […]

Featuring TJ and CJ….

It’s Monday…one day to go before surgery, up early to be at the hospital for all the pre-surgery stuff. All went well, good to go for surgery, so I made a few stops on the way home, new sneakers, new sexy lacy underwear, I even bought red, I never wear red, but hey its a new me and it looked […]

Charlie is waiting for us…

I was able to get some sleep but got up and went to church as I felt that was the best place for me today. Still wished more than anything to be able to talk to the other at some point, but now understanding the ‘scared’ issue, I was a bit more calm and willing to be patient and focused […]