Saturday night and its been a quite but long day. Didn’t sleep well last night and yet as tired as I am, I’m wide awake. I tried to keep busy today as best as I can, found a new show to watch on Netflix to help pass time, took care of some laundry and took a shower, still weak from […]
I sit here on this Friday night, upset, upset that I upset CJ. I honestly didn’t mean to, we had a beautiful day, full of text, videos, pictures and new stories about the Game and conversations again about many things. Our lunch date was again very tender when saying goodbye and the acknowledgement of things that need to be said […]
Day 2 post surgery, doing better much improvement over yesterday. Even had just enough energy to take a bath and soak, can’t get the incision site wet but that’s not a problem so it was nice, relaxing and the bubbles felt good to help clean and make me not feel so yucky. But as always since I am barely eating […]
Post Surgery just over 24 hours, feels like a week. The surgery was ever-so nerve wracking, they were running late with the first surgery and sitting and waiting normally for me is easy, I can always find something to occupy myself, a book, talking to someone, napping whatever, patience is usually easy for me, but yesterday I was struggling with […]
It’s Monday…one day to go before surgery, up early to be at the hospital for all the pre-surgery stuff. All went well, good to go for surgery, so I made a few stops on the way home, new sneakers, new sexy lacy underwear, I even bought red, I never wear red, but hey its a new me and it looked […]
I was able to get some sleep but got up and went to church as I felt that was the best place for me today. Still wished more than anything to be able to talk to the other at some point, but now understanding the ‘scared’ issue, I was a bit more calm and willing to be patient and focused […]
Addendum 2: Arrived safely home about 1 am and was of course wide awake, so I unpacked and went through the mail and packages and here I am almost 2am and still wide awake….but I’ve come to some conclusions….yes, again!!! I am scared. It’s that simple. For the first time in I think my entire life, I want something so […]
Addendum….its been a long day, traveling gives you too much time to think and think and people watch and more thinking….and I haven’t heard from the other half….and my heart hurts…I understand in general, but at the same time I don’t. I would do everything in my power to reach out and at least touch base, especially knowing how tenuous […]
Part 2 / Day 5: It’s an early writing day, the rest of the day will be lunch with friends and then at the airport and I’d rather not be stuck writing like I did last time standing in line at the airport security line. So here I am checking in early and pausing for a moment. Nothing about this […]
Part 2 / Day 4: Today I moved to the last and final location for a quick 24 hour stop with some good friends. People I have known literally my entire life and it’s been wonderful to hang out with them and see them and talk and laugh and just catch up….its almost like breathing, its so natural how you […]