From morning till night

Started my day again talking to CJ while he drove to work, I really like starting my day with him in this way. Since I cant see him and hug and kiss him good bye in the morning, talking to him while he drives and I am doing my morning routine at the space is a nice way to connect and a perfect way to start my day. We talked on and off all day and texted and had a video lunch so once again it was a great day connecting. I like days like this.

Not much new going on, furniture will be delivered next week, really looking forward to having a couch, especially one that we picked out together will be nice, the new washing machine was installed and I spent the afternoon and evening catching up on laundry and am almost done, maybe one more load tomorrow. Not a fan of the front loader, but hey I am sure I will adjust.

Work was a dumpster fire, finding lots of issues that happened while I was out and trying to fix and clean up has been a nightmare and today found a huge issue that my boss is unhappy about, working on resolutions, but it will take time and someone is going to have to pay the price for this and thankfully it wont be me.

CJ had some of his own fires to put out today and even with all of the fires we both had, we made talking a priority and it felt nice, normal, even with my crazy mood of worry and stress creeping in. But we made it through and for me there were lots of smiles and beautiful moments in between the craziness. Lots of pictures which help to keep me sane and grounded seeing his beautiful face smiling back at me. I could watch him work, or sitting doing nothing, I could start at him for hours he makes my heart happy.

So as uneventful as today was, we talked endlessly about a lot of things, the situation, work, each other, our future sexual escapades, future opportunities to meet for quick moments now that we are closer and opportunities may present themselves. And we enjoyed watching the video that CJ took of us on Monday, just two short videos of us being intimate and they are lovely. For me its not a sexual thing, its the us connecting, being one, our bodies uniting in a powerful way that is beautiful and we talked about how we want to make more, better, longer videos of us and each other and to be able to watch them together and just revel in our oneness. It’s a beautiful thing that we can talk about it, that we both want the same things, that we are on the same page and that soon there will be unlimited opportunities for us to enjoy our physical relationship and connections and make as many videos as we want. I especially want one of me enjoying the beast and that will be a priority video!!

So as the morning began, the night ended, we were able to connect via texting and tell each other that we missed the other and send ‘kisses’ back and forth. So while he is not ‘here’ I am grateful we are able to start and end our days together many days, but one day very soon we will begin each morning and end each day in each others arms. And that, that will be truly heaven on earth.