My Great Escape…

Ever have a song in your life that you relate to but it really doesn’t relate to your life? I’ve had several but this one song has always just touched me and it’s always been in the back of my mind and just is one of my all time favorite songs, but has absolutely nothing to do with or anything in common in with my life…or does it?

Train has always been one of my favorite groups and I have even gone to concerts by myself to see them in several locations, and Pat Monahan their lead singer did a solo album that I adore almost every song on that album, but one, one was just that elusive, relatable, but not relatable song but every time it came on or was on my playlist, I’d never skip it, not once.

But tonight that song came on and it finally hit me, it truly hit me deep down, that this situation, this moment right now is this song, exactly this song, my life in a song, all the good parts, the moments I have been waiting for I think for years and years to happen. I think I was unconsciously connected to this song because it is what I always wanted to happen, what I dreamed would happen in my life, but could or wouldn’t put to words, not even in my own head, but the dream was always there snuggled down deep into the back depths and waiting for this moment to have its turn in the sun.

As I listened and then listened to it again, the lyrics spoke to me differently this time, for this exact moment of heading out to my Great Escape, to my new adventure from the planning to making lists of where I’d be living and what I am leaving behind to who I’d want with me and how I need someone like CJ in my life and that’s all I need…and I can make my great escape to my real life, to my next life, to our great adventure.

Today CJ and I connected throughout the day on an even deeper level, connecting on a topic dear to our hearts and as per usual we were 100% in sync, I know I shouldn’t be surprised, but sometimes I am that we can already be that connected, that in sync and sometimes I’ll sit back and just marvel at how beautiful that is, how rare that is and also how very grateful I am that we have that already and we are miles and miles apart and the adventure ahead of learning each other again on a deeper and more personal and intimate level is truly powerful and I cannot wait to go on my great escape.

Because my great escape is not escaping something bad, leaving something behind, but escaping into the known, the future, the pure happiness of connection and oneness that we are reaching for, it is an escape to CJ, to us, to a higher and more purposeful life and it is an escape to a truly better life, but also a simpler life because we don’t need much, just each other. So as I count down the days and now hours till I leave and get to our new space, and I know that CJ is not far behind, I know that our great escape into our shared future is only just the beginning of something greater than we can even dream of.

Great Escape by Pat Monahan Lyrics:
Thought I could but I just can’t wait
Started plannin’ for my great escape
Where I’d live and what I’d leave behind

Made a list of things I’d have to take
The things that make me feel like shit, for heavens sake
Who I’d love and who would tow the line

And I need you
Everybody needs someone like you
If you need me to
You would be the only thing that I’d take
On my great escape

I float through this town like a cosmonaut
Remindin’ me of all the things I haven’t got
Like time and space, a smile on my face and you

And I need you
Everybody needs someone like you
If you need me to
You would be the only thing that I’d take with me

Maybe I’ll find that my destination
Is somewhere I already know
And you were as far as I ever had to go

And I need you
(Thought I could but I just can’t wait)
Everybody needs someone like you
(Started plannin’ for my great escape)

If you need me to
(Who I’d love and who I’d leave behind)
You would be the only thing that I’d take with me
(Who I’d leave behind)

I need you
(Who I’d leave behind)
Everybody needs someone like you

If you need me to
You would be the only thing that I?d take
On my great escape
On my great escape